Sejujurnya, kalau bercakap pasal agama , aku lah orang terakhirnya.

Sebabnya aku low-esteem :(

Sebabnya aku cuma beberapa bulan sekolah agama.

Sebabnya ibu ayah aku tak berapa nak ajar pasal agama.

Sebabnya solat aku terbengkalai merata.

TAPI,

Bila aku jumpa manusia yang kononnya more islamic.

Yang dari 5 tahun sampai 18 tahun sekolah agama.

Yang ibu ayahnya ustaz dan ustazah.

Yang solatnya dijaga.

Mereka pandang kita yang less islamic.

Dan bersuara.

"euw! Orang macam kau akan dihumban masuk NERAKA."

hm.

Aku nampak yang meNERAKAkan orang tu manusia sendiri.

Aku nampak yang menjaga TAQDIR itu manusia sendiri.

bro, iman kita turun naik BRO. Apa kau pasti kau akan mati dalam keadaan sembahyang? atau mati dalam pelukan perempuan bukan muhrim?

Kita semua taktahu.

Maka,

jangan riak.

JANGAN.

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Aku?

campak ke laut aku jadi pulau,

lempar ke paya aku jadi bakau,

aku telah, sedang dan boleh hidup tanpa kau.

Wednesday 31 October 2012 (0 comment)

Assalamualaikum.

Today is 1 November 2012. This is my new blog. I've forgotten my-old -blog-password. So,I've made new blog! Looks like it's an update, after so so so long. I haven't felt like writing for a very long time. The will to write. I want to write again. Sooner rather than later.

Bear with me people. If you don't want to read my blog, then please close this tab. Pretty please with a cherry on top.

There's a lots of things that happened to me this year. The beginning of the year is quite disaster for me. Mom and dad divorced. I was so sad. I stayed w my mom and I think that unfair for my dad. In my mind thinking that I must look for happiness. I must get out from this miserable zone.

As I got the offer letter from technical institute kuantan so I decided to stay in hostel. I think it would be a good idea. But it turns to holy shit! SAD SAD SAD BLUE. I miss my mom, IBU!

What went wrong?

Was our family love is not as strong?

Its hard to believe that she's gone?

Why she's left why she's gone

Was I do anything wrong?

I got letter from mom.

Pardon me this happened to your little heart.

That mommy and daddy has split apart.

For 19 years we have been through ups and downs

A stitch in time save nine

Mommy and daddy were not meant to be.

People see me as a dead girl faking a fake smile.

With the beautiful smile and stupid lies.

Well deep inside I'm bleeding, I'm needing,I'm begging.